When the curious girl realizes she is under glass by Bright Eyes

The Song in My Head series catalogs the songs that appear—seemingly unbidden—in my mind often but not always after waking up since losing my hearing. Posting does not equal endorsement. Whether I like a song doesn’t affect whether it appears here or in my mind.

As with other Bright Eyes songs, this song often comes to me with the piano first. The piano line sounds idiotic and crazed, and the vocals follow in that theme. This is not subtle music; it is juvenalia par excelence. I am convinced that the lyric is ‘I started this letter I’m gonna send it to Aruba,’ which is nonsensical and preferred.

Lyrics

Tomorrow when I wake up I’m finding my brother
And making him take me back down to the water.
That lake where we sailed and we laughed with our father.
I will not desert him. I will not desert him.
No matter how I may wish for a coffin so clean
Or these trees to undress all their leaves onto me.
I put my face in the dirt and then finally I see
The sky that has been avoiding me.
I started this letter I’m gonna send it to Ruba.
It will be blessed by her eyes on the gulf coast of Florida.
With her feet in the sand and one hand on her swimsuit,
She will recite the prayer of my pen.
Saying, …time take us forward. Relief from this longing,
They can land that plane on my heart I don’t care
Just give me November, the warmth of a whisper
In the freezing darkness of my room.
But no matter what I would do in attempt to replace.
All these pills that I take trying to balance my brain.
I’ve seen the curious girl with that look on her face.
So surprised she stares out from her display case.